Here we are at my first weekly look back diary thing! I've not had the most exciting week but we have to start somewhere.....
Monday: Back to school and I found out that I still can't wake up at 6:40 in the morning even after doing it for 5 years. I felt pretty rubbish but I went to meet my friends at the station to walk to school. We were reminded once again in form that we only had 7 days left of school before study leave and that our first exam was on Tuesday 5th May. That was the start of my decent into darkness and stress. Great. After maths I felt worse and was one of the last out of the room. One of my friends came over to me before we left and gave me a hug asking what was wrong. So my maths teacher pulled me over in the corridor to talk to me and gave me some pretty good advice and I felt slightly better. Until I went to physics and I felt rubbish again. I got to the end of the day though and just did some revision at home until about six o'clock. Then I went downstairs to eat and watch some episodes of Merlin Season 5 on Netflix. I cried. A lot. Tuesday: Got up slightly easier today but still felt bad about stuff. And again it got worse when I got to school. I managed to get through form and double english but my singing lesson was cancelled so I couldn't have that relaxation period that I usually do in my singing lessons. My piano lessons were also cancelled because of piano teacher being stuck in traffic, so didn't get to do any music that day because by the time I got back home I was so tired I just went to sleep. Music lessons always make me feel better. I think maybe that's why I haven't been able to get myself out of this stressful situation because I haven't been able to have that scheduled down-time of my music lessons. I wasn't able to fit in time to practice the rest of the week, which is slightly annoying, but it happens at the moment. Wednesday: Same kind of average day. I got a bad Biology test result though which kind of ruined my day a bit. I had Extra Maths after school. I always feel more tired on a Wednesday after school because I have six hours of lessons opposed to the five I have every other day. Anyway, I still felt bad after that, so had another talk with my maths teacher about what was going on. I felt slightly better afterwards as I managed to get stuff off my chest but I still felt down about it all. Thursday: Same routine once again. I had to wear my wrist brace for my left wrist. I must have sprained it in the last week or so and carrying about 3 massive folders to and from school every day probably wasn't helping. I went to my drama group, StageFright, in the evening which cheered me up for a while and let me forget about everything for almost two hours. I had a talk with one of my friends there who did his GCSEs last year and he gave me some pointers and a bit of a pep talk which was helpful, I really needed it. Friday: I was tired and stressed, so this was probably the worst day of my week. Everything had been building up and I wasn't feeling up to much, but that's how it is sometimes. The only good thing was that it was chicken nugget day so I had that for lunch. Double drama just tired me out and I was ready to drop out of school by the time that was over. I love drama, don't get me wrong but we are just doing theory at the moment which is quite draining and goes slowly as it feels as if we are doing the same thing over and over again. Plus we get tons of homework from it. And then in Music we had to finish off a practice paper which is just boring honestly as well as signing all our paperwork for our controlled assessments. but I got an A for both, so that was alright. I then thought I would do an extra maths session after school which was alright I guess but that just really got me down, even though the work was easy and I understood it. When I got home, I decided to watch the last two episodes of Merlin with my sister. The last two episodes ever. I remember how much I cried when they first came out. I cried more than that this time. I think it was because I have gone through the journey with the characters all over again so I've become even more attached than I was previously, so the certain deaths in those episodes were absolutely heartbreaking. I decided that the best way for me to feel better would be to start Once Upon A Time and like three characters die in the first episode. So I cried more. It was fun. Saturday: My mum's birthday! She liked the presents my sister and I got her (a puzzle and some strawberry truffles) and we had croissants and pain au chocolats for breakfast, like we do on every special occasion. Then I did some revision for the rest of the day until my Nan came round and my mum and stepdad went out. We watched Saving Mr Banks and an episode of Once Upon A Time, which she enjoyed as much as us and it was really nice to catch up with her as I haven't seen her in a few weeks because she's been ill. So Saturday was alright, I felt better about stuff and just relaxed a bit. Sunday: Today! My Grandad and Nana Lynne came round to go out to lunch to celebrate my mum's birthday. I couldn't finish mine it was so filling, but it was good so I'm happy. I just finished my revision for today and am just chilling for a while before eating and watching some more Once Upon A Time. Hasn't been a bad day. So yeah, that was that. It was probably boring, but this is a new style of writing for me, so it will gradually get better, the more I do. Now I have just got to get through this next week. The next time I write one of these it will be my 16th birthday! I'll still revise though. Until next week! Comments are closed.
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